A new story is coming~~

yoyoyoyo! I'm writing a whole new story. I'm gonna put my Highway aside for a while but I will definitely write it. The story that I'm working on is not related to the story that I'm posting. It's a new one. It's called, "You are my boy friend, but you aren't my boyfriend." OK, looking at the title, you will know exactly what the story is about and you may think that it's so cliche, but you are wrong. It's gonna be a lot exciting and awesome than what you are thinking. So far, I've written 20 sth pages, and I really love it. There are some sex scenes, and this is the third time I wrote something like that and I think I'm getting good at that. (P.S. I don't have a boyfriend and I haven't lost my virginity HAHA) Anyways, I guess it wont take too long to write, so probably it will be finished in summer. I could finish it a lot earlier but too bad I have GCE exams and I wont have too much time to work on it. T_T

Here you go, Chapter 26.

Chapter 26

April 2008

Serena read Sam’s weblog, saying that he was very sure that he had never been with her, he had never, not ever, fallen in love with Serena. When she saw that, she felt like her heart had been ripped out, a huge hole was left in her chest and the hurt had been eating her inside out.

About a week later, Serena did not care anymore. What it was like few months before could definitely change into a quagmire like this. Serena would not try anything to put things right, not again. There was no way around and as well as it was never worth it. It’s never worth to do this when everyone made Serena the fool. There was no hope in trying to fix the entire thing.

However, no matter how hard she tried to forget, she could still remember what Sam has said to her, they scared for life. Love a person, had once felt for a person, you had to love her with your entire heart, make her happy, protect her from getting hurt, but not do something that will break her heart!

From what Sam has done, she would no longer believe that Sam loved her, not anymore. When something was said, it’s not that easy to take it back, you could deny it whenever you wanted to, like it has never happened but the fact was fact.

Now, to Serena, life was like that, everything came so fast and it also left so fast, you could not really get hold of it, it just slipped away. Serena could never imagine that Sam was a person like that. People said Sam would never be too chicken to admit that he loved Serena, they were not wrong. Sam did admit to Serena but he never admitted to anyone else. He never wanted anyone to know about their relationship. He just liked to run away from things. Whenever Serena thought of what Sam said to her before, she would burst out tears, because, what Sam did was just so not like him. “‘Sorry. Well, I thought you can tell that was not me. I won’t write such heartbreaking stuff.’” But the truth was, Sam really was doing this heartbreaking stuff.

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That night, Serena wrote a letter which was addressed to Sam, she wanted to talk to him but she just did not have the courage to do the face-to-face. She asked Joanna to put the letter in Sam’s Nike bag the next day. She knew perfectly clear that if she gave him herself, he would not accept it, or if she got a chance to go near him.

Hey Sam,

Maybe you don’t want to read this letter, but please, please finish it before you tear it into pieces or burn it, or whatever. It’s been a month now; I just want to say what happened back there was so ridiculous, at least that’s what I think now. I don’t care who is right and who is wrong, not anymore. I just want to be a friend with you, that’s all, nothing else. Don’t you think it is such a pity that our friendship ended because of that? It seems stupid to me.

Until now, I still believe that what you told me in the past were true, they were not lies. Well, but there is no need for us to talk about it, not anymore. Everything has passed. I know you won’t want to talk about what was said either.

I’m not asking you for anything, and I’m not forcing you to make any decision, I just don't want us to be like that, pretending we don't see each other though we do. I just wanna say this before losing the chance. I wish we can be a very normal friend again, just like we first met, at least we will greet each other, or just nod our head when seeing each other. I know that you will never feel for me again and you may even hate me. I too don't want to upset your friend. You have your right to choose. I will accept whichever answer from you. I won't expect anything.

I just want you to know what I think and I have never hated you, not ever, if you don’t feel like to be friends with me, fine, you can simply ignore me. But I really do hope that you will let me know if you accept this offer. Be FRIENDS. Well, if you don’t do anything, then I will know the answer. I will understand if you don’t want to give me one. Sam, I really love you and I want you to know that I never hate you, not ever.

Love

Serena