My Happy 18th Birthday

I'm 18!! I'm 18!! Sweet 18!!! Happy 18!! LOL Yeah, I'm finally 18 years old. I had my 18th birthday yesterday. (24/2/2010) It was nice. It's not a very special one, because basically I hanged out with my sis and John (her boyfriend), we took pictures, and walked around, chatting and laughing, it's fun though, I like it. Anyways, after that I had dinner with my family, John and my friend at night at L'Arc. The buffet was nice! :) I didn't receive a lot of presents because all my good friends are not here in Macau.... but what I got are really special. First I got a bag of snacks from my friend. At night, during the buffet, I finally received my sis and John's present! I had been waiting for ages!!!!!!! Guess what........ it's a Tiffany & Co. ring!!! OMG! I HEART Tiffany&CO. I always wanted that ring!! Thanks sooooooooo much! Also my kindergarten frd, also my elementary school friend, and also my high school friend, Grace, she baked me a cake! A really nice peach flavour cake! It tastes good and looks good!! LOL A day before my birthday, I received a birthday card from my friend, Vicky in Canada. Oh... I miss her. Anyways, I wish to receive my friend, Scarlett's birthday card, (She's in San Fransisco) but too bad she broke her leg two months ago, and still unable to walk so... she can't go to the post office. But then, that's okay. I understand. What I've been longing for (except the ring) is my best friend Jasmine's present!! LOL. She called me on my birthday from UK. I'm sooooo glad she called. And today I received the present from her . Just one day after my birthday but it's okay! She got me a pair of star shaped earrings which is nice and suits me, she also made the most awesome birthday card in the world. I've never received such a wonderful and pretty card in my life! It's even better than the first one she made me. OMFG. I love you JAS!

P.S. My friend Scarlett and Vicky have been complaining about me saying "I miss u Jas" all the time on facebook or the other way round. So I promised them that I'm not gonna say that too often on facebook.... or at least not to let them see that. HAHAHAHAHAHA Anyways, they won't see this post, so cool! LOL

Here are some pictures that I took yesterday and Chapter 23 of the Crossroad! Enjoy!

From Vicky

Snacks

They are from Jas! I'm not gonna show u what's inside the card.. LOL

That's Grace. (On the left)

Awesome guy, John!

OH! This cake. Grace baked it herself!

That's one of my birthday cake.

I HEART Tiffany & Co.

Chapter 23

March 2008

Students were asked to give a speech during the English lesson; Serena had chosen to write a speech about Relationship. She knew that the one she wanted to let her hear would be in that classroom and she really wanted to express her feelings.

“It’s just not all about her. It’s not about whose right, or who’s wrong. It’s not about who’s weaker, or who’s strong and that had to be hurt. It’s not about who’s innocent, or whose fault! It isn’t really about that kind of thing at all. It’s not about who does it, who done it, or did it to who. It doesn’t matter if it was you all along. It’s really not about nothing, except for me and you.

“Its all about drama, and love, and relationships, and when the going gets tough, you deal with it and you don’t ever, you never walk away from it. You hold on tight, and be strong.

“It’s all about trust. If somebody is trying to mess up, you take it in. You don’t let anybody come between you, you just stay with it. It’s about the promises you’ve once made. It’s about whether you’re gonna keep it or not. It’s not about the secrecy or the lies. You don’t tell me everything; it’s ok, because everybody’s got a secret to hide. It’s not about who was it, or was she, whose creeping on who. It won’t matter if the both of us lose but why those gotta be the one to win? It’s really not about nothing, except for me and you.

“Why did you let people come between you two? Why don’t you just stay with it? It’s not about your pride, not about yourself. It’s about the two of you, and no one else! The two of you! It’s not about the hurt and lies. It’s not about the crazy things that are running through your mind, giving you hard time to make a decision. It’s about the love that’s supposed to last and never die!”

When Serena was done with her speech, a single tear fell down and rolled down her cheek.

In the afternoon, after school, Serena went to library for the discussion of the model making of the Biology, when walking to the meeting room, Sam was walking towards Serena but he took her as invisible. He gazed pass her; he turned around the corner and walked away and never looked back.

Serena felt so broken; He really does hate me now. She thought. She knew Sam had chosen Nancy over her, but she never expect that Sam would use this kind of way to fix the matter. However, all she could do now was to bite back the wave of hurt and concentrated on what she had to do.

That night, Serena sent Sam a text message saying:

Sam,

Am I that annoyed now? You don’t even wanna talk to me!? Do you want to shut me out totally? Why would you do this to hurt me! You done this, have you ever thought of how I feel?

S.

Sam replied the next day.

Serena,

I felt so annoyed; I don’t want to talk to anybody about anything.

Sam.

When Serena saw that, a shard of ice seemed to pierce her heart. She felt like all the air had been sucked out of the Earth and that she could not breathe.

Chapter 24

April 2008

Lax’s weblog

Please, you are not anybody to Sam. Do you honestly think that you are someone he loves? You are just one of the friends that he has. You may say that he doesn’t tell me anything, right, it’s true. But I’m not blind, I can see that. I know you love Sam but he doesn’t. And these days, he’s so emotional! Actually this is something between you and Sam, you shouldn’t ask around the world. This is the dumpiest way ever.

You know, what you did cause people have hard feeling, I wonder have you ever used your brain to think. You have so much time to think of relationship, why you don’t go re-evaluate yourself. By the way, everyone has their way to deal with problem; you don’t have the right to judge them. People like to ignore you; maybe this is a way that will cause less pain! He didn’t tell the others how annoying you are, because he still treats you as a friend. So, please, just let go of the others and Sam!

Nancy’s weblog
Being a friend, it’s so about destiny, if it’s over, you should let go, grab hold tight is useless. Before you misunderstood him, then he made it clear for you. You two are friends, it’s just so simple, and what else do you want? He won’t ignore you all of a sudden, there must be a reason. You should have come and ask me about that. Actually it’s so simple, you should re-evaluate yourself. Got it? Instead you go around and asking the whole world the reason why! He never tells the others about what you have done, because he treats you as a friend, but you just keep on attacking. Don’t you try to be innocent anymore!

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The second week after being ignored by Sam started like any other day except a lot worse. Serena felt like being sentenced to death for no reason. She really wanted to know what she had done that made Nancy hated her and why would Sam choose to use this kind of method to fix the problem. “I don’t deserve that!” Serena thought.

She always wished everything was just misunderstandings. But she knew that it was not, because it was so real. However, she just could not accept the fact that Sam would choose to ignore her. She did not want to fight it anymore, Sam always asked Serena to trust him, over and over again, and when she really trusted him. Sam did this kind of thing to her. She promised herself that she would not find any excuses for herself anymore. She did not know what Sam had said that would make Lax and Nancy talk about her in such a way. Serena wanted to tell Sam that she did not say anything about their relationship to anyone, not even a word. She knew that Sam never want anyone to know about their relationship, that was why she never did she split a word.

It's always so hard to believe. But Serena trusted Sam for what he has said before, but now Serena just left it as a good memory. Since right now, everything was a mess. There were always questions inside Serena; she really wanted to know whether Sam had been lying to her all this time. She always cared about Sam, wished him the best, never had she done anything to hurt him, she never put him in any battle and left him there alone to suffer and die.