Chapter 13
January 2009
The next morning, Serena was the first to wake up. Jasmine and Joanna had both stayed over night. Serena found her trek to the bathroom; she flicked the light on, and was frightened by the reflection in the mirror. Staring back at her was a pale face with tired eyes, dark circles beneath them. Serena looked like a zombie. That was exactly the way she looked last year. Her hair was in a total mess, in fact, everything about her was in a total mess. Broken up with the one she loved, and now knowing that Sam would stay away from her for real, everything she hoped for was all nothing but a dream. They would never come true and would be gone at the very moment you wake up. Serena looked at the reflection, she knew she did not want to go back to April; she wouldn’t have the strength to handle that again.
Serena reached into the bathtub and started the water, putting the stopper in when the water turned hot. Serena pulled her tee shirt over her head, dropping it to the floor. She sat down in the water and slowly lay back, hissing slightly as the hot water washed over her chest and shoulders. After taking a bath, Serena changed into clean clothes and tied her hair up; she then picked up the foundation, the eye shadow, the eyeliner and the mascara. After she was done, she once again looked at the reflection, this time, it didn’t scare the heck out of her, she was satisfied with how she looked. She really was going to leave the pieces far behind, once and for all.
Serena opened the door and that was when Jasmine and Joanna both woke up.
“Hey, you’re up, how’re you doing?” Jasmine said with a huge yawned.
“Never better.” Serena smiled.
“Are you sure?” Joanna asked, rubbing her eyes; she was not sure about the word awesome.
“Really, I’m pretty sure. I don’t plan to go back to April. I’m going to forget about everything, it will be hard but I know I got you two.” Serena said with a weak smile. She knew she had to forget about it.
“We’ll always be there for you.” Joanna said and Jasmine nodded in agreement.
“I’m okay, really. Maybe you two should head back and get some sleep. I still got some paper due tomorrow. I gotta finish them first.” Serena said and gathering Jasmine and Joanna’s belongings.
“Ok, sure. We’ll see you tomorrow. Don’t think so much.” Jasmine said and walked to the bathroom and quickly brushed her teeth and Jasmine did the same.
“Call us if you need anything.” Joanna said and they both left.
“You think Serena’s gonna be okay?” Jasmine asked Joanna on their way to Jasmine’s car.
“I don’t know. But I think we should give her some time, alone. She will be okay soon.” Joanna doubted.
“Yeah. Let’s hope she does.”
“Joanna, can I go punch Sam?” Jasmine asked all of a sudden.
Joanna turned to look at her with surprised, “What? NO!? It won’t do any good.” She reasoned.
“But I can’t stand there and watching him breaking Serena’s heart over and over!” Jasmine said angrily.
“I know, but all we can do is to reason with him, but not go punching him.”
“You will go talk to him right?” Jasmine asked Joanna.
“Yeah. I will.” Joanna said with a nodded.
“I don’t know if I can control myself from scolding Sam.” Jasmine whispered.
“Well, I won’t stop you from doing that.” Joanna looked at Jasmine and they both smiled.
“Joanna, I needa talk to you.” Sam said and he hurried invite Joanna in. After Sam shut the door, Joanna turned to him and shouted.
“Damn it, Sam! What did you do to Serena?” Joanna said angrily.
Sam looked at her and asked, “How do you know?”
“You think I don’t know?” Joanna asked furiously.
Sam bitted his lip and began, “Well, I talked to her, and asked her to forget about me.” Sam said with a calm tone.
“Serena called me and Jas last night, crying so badly. And you expect me to believe it’s that simple?” Joanna replied with a glare.
“I’m sorry.” Sam whispered.
“I can tell that she didn’t tell me every single thing that you guys talked about, so you better tell me now.” Joanna said, staring at Sam.
“I said I wouldn’t give her hope anymore, I wouldn’t break her heart again.” Sam said as he lowered his head.
“That’s it?” Joanna asked with doubt.
“Well, um… I told her that I’m with
“Damn! No wonder she was that upset!” Joanna shouted at him and took a few deep breaths.
“So are you really with
Sam did not say anything.
“You’re so screwed, Sam!” Joanna shot him a dead glare.
“Nancy loves me and I figured that in this way, even if I somehow can’t control myself and give Serena hope, she won’t take it seriously when she knows I’m with
Joanna stared at him and shouted, “Just because you can’t control yourself and you pin the pain on Serena? And being a two-timer as well? You are not trying to better this relationship, are you? You’re just making it worse!”
“Joanna, I’m not sure what’s the right thing to do.” Sam said, as he ran his finger through his hair.
“You better catch sure. You told her that you will stay out of her life, and then maybe you should to do it.”
Sam thought for a while, he really didn’t know what to do, he wanted to stay out of Serena’s life so that she could move on without getting hurt again because of him, but on the other hand, he wanted to get back with her, protect her from being hurt by whoever it was. Joanna waved her hand in front of Sam’s eyes when he didn’t answer. The movement caused Sam to snap out of his thought and he looked at Joanna.
Sam licked his lip and cleared his throat. “I will. I guess I have ended everything when I said I’m with
“Sam, why would you say that? You love her!” Joanna looked at Sam wide eye.
“I’m not such a good guy, what I do all this time, is killing her. I want her to be happy. Joanna, please help me to stay away from her.” Sam pleaded.
“No, I won’t! Serena’s my best friend, I won’t do that!” Joanna refused.
“I will lose control and subconsciously give her hope; I need someone who could stop me!” Sam told Joanna.
“I won’t help you to stay away from her, but I will talk to Serena and help her to move on.”
Sam nodded in agreement; he knew that the coming semester would be a torture to him for he would not see Serena anymore. He would go change the time table with the teacher so that Serena and he would never be in the same class. Sam did not want to think anymore, he felt so depressed.
“I don’t know how to help you guys anymore.” Joanna said with sadness.
“Help her move on. That’s what you can do and don’t tell anyone that I’m with
Joanna nodded.
“How’s she holding up?”
Joanna sighed and began, “She shut herself out at first, then last night she called, Jas and I went over to stay with her till morning, but then when she woke up, I felt like something was not right, she was like a different person, she said she was fine, and she asked us to leave.”
Sam sighed loudly, he could not stand to see Serena driving herself into a rubbing room for him, but he did not know what else he could do. He really screwed everything up, big time.
“Maybe she thought it over, she is moving on.”
“Let’s just hope you are right.”
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