All I want is a hug not a blame

Have you ever screwed things up? Something really bad happen to you and you feel so bad? You just can't put up your happy face when talking to people? Or maybe you don't want to talk to anybody at all? All you want to do right that moment is to either bury your head under your pillow or wander on the street until it's too late to go home, yeah? This will happen to everybody. As long as they are human beings. As long as they have emotions.

When I screwed up something, I knew I was wrong and I would try my best not to make the same mistake twice. I knew I had screwed up. But what I don't need is someone telling me how wrong I was, how I should be so I wouldn't screw things up. I seriously do not need that. I know I was wrong. I felt guilty already. The guilt has been eating me from the inside. I was upset. The world seemed to have crushed around me. Right that moment I felt hopeless. But every time, people will only start telling me how wrong I was and how stupid I was to act like I didn't give a shit.

I know telling me how I should do and how wrong I was sound right to me, it is something that I should know, because I need to understand the consequences and not to take the wrong step again. But I know, I understand. So please stop doing that when I was feeling so bad. That was not helping. That will only make things worse. That will just make me don't want to listen. Why can't people just give me a hug and confront me and tell me what I should do... later? Why they need to make you feel more sad? It won't help at all.

Being supportive at that very moment means a lot. It won't spoil that person. Making the person feels better is a way to make him/her listens too. Being upset and having anger boiling inside him/her will only blind them, they won't see things clearly and they won't listen to any of the advices. What's the good of that? Sometimes putting yourself into other's shoe is important. Applying your life or your way of doing things to other is so wrong because you were never him/her. Life is a dream, but it's never a comparison or what-you-think-it-should-be-like. Maybe you think getting upset for that is stupid and totally naive, but just stop for a second and think about maybe just maybe to that person, it's something huge. You were never him/her, somehow you could never understand.

It is okay for the others to scold, to talk, to blame the person who deserves it. But doing it at that very moment is so wrong. The person will only think that you are making things uneasy for him/her, he/she won't see the good of it. Then what's the point of that? No one wants people to blame them at that very moment even though they know how wrong they are and deep down they know they deserve it. This is human nature. They all want others to pat on their shoulders telling them it's okay or shhhh, it's alright. They do not mind people scolding them at the end but telling them it's okay, even it's a big fat lie, will make things easier.

Every time I screw things up; the same thing happens. I just want for once, don't do that to me when I need comfort more than a blame. All I want is for you to open your arms and hug me tightly.